Have you ever looked at your life and wondered, why me Lord? Why this pain and struggle?

A toxic relationship can feel like you’re living in a war zone. You are constantly in a state of fight or flight. The people who are meant to nurture and protect you, wound and confuse you.

It’s exhausting and deeply painful.

For many, it feels like an impossible burden to bear. But know this:

There is purpose in your pain.

Being born into a toxic family, or being in a relationship with a narcissist is neither a punishment nor an accident.

It’s not God punishing or abandoning you. It is all part of His masterful plan. He uses your suffering for good. Your pain may feel never-ending but in God’s hands, your pain strengthens and refines you.

The #SelfLoveJourney is a spiritual journey. Trauma and separation give way to connection and love. When you know the love of Christ, self-love takes on a whole new meaning. It’s not me first, it’s me-too.

Isaiah 41 reminds you, “fear not, for I am with you. Be not dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”

Even when life feels overwhelming, even when the chaos of your upbringing strips away all hope, God is steady. His presence doesn’t just guide you through the fire, it transforms you within it.

The toxic family environment that you have endured, or the narcissistic relationship with a boss, spouse, friend, family member or colleague may feel like a battleground but it is also the very place where God begins to whisper his plans for your life.

Genesis, chapters 37–50 tell the story of Joseph who was betrayed by his brothers. He was sold into slavery and imprisoned for a crime he didn’t commit. Joseph’s family wasn’t just toxic, they outright rejected him. He was the classic scapegoat in the family. Yet, even in his darkest moments, Joseph trusted God’s plan for his life.

When he finally saw his brothers again, he said to them in Genesis 50, “You intended to harm me but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.”

That same God who worked through Joseph, is working through YOU.

He takes the broken pieces of your life and reshapes them into something beautiful. Isaiah 48:10 says, “See, I have refined you, though not as silver; I have tested you in the furnace of affliction.”

A toxic family or relationship can feel like a furnace: hot, relentless and painful. But what does a furnace do? It burns away impurities, leaving behind something stronger, purer and more valuable.

This refining process isn’t just about endurance, it’s about transformation.

Learn how to love yourself and finally experience the peace and confidence that comes from trusting your inner voice.

Join me on a #SelfLoveJourney that transforms your life from the inside out.

Feel stuck in old codependent patterns and behaviors like people-pleasing and care-taking? Struggle with perfectionism, deep feelings of loss, emptiness or loneliness?

Find yourself walking on egg-shells, sacrificing your needs or hiding what you really want in a relationship for fear of being “needy.”

Attract avoidant, unavailable or narcissistic partners?

Feel frustrated or overwhelmed by your emotions, unable to soothe your anxiety, or stop racing thoughts? Or on the opposite end, struggle to access your emotions and numb out?

Get caught in the same relationship patterns over and over again even though you looked for the red flags and intended that this time it would be different?

Struggle to say no and set boundaries? Find yourself doing things out of guilt or obligation? Settle for less than you deserve?

Suspect you are currently in or have been in an emotionally abusive or narcissistic relationship?

Feel confused about what is your intuition versus feelings of anxiety or an overactive or wild imagination?

If this sounds like you, my #SelfLoveJourney Coaching Program can help!

You don’t have to figure it out on your own any more.

Work 1:1 with a coach who has done the work and can show you the way!

Listen, I know how it feels…

To pour so much of yourself into a job or a relationship, only to get pain and betrayal back in return.

Many of us have found ourselves at this crossroads in life. Where we’re not where we want to be in our love lives or careers, and the peace, love and happiness we desire seems so far away.

We aren’t excited to jump out of bed, we feel unlucky in love and we find ourselves on auto pilot going through the motions. Or worse, battling anxiety and depression.

We feel so far away from building the life, relationships or business we’ve always dreamed of.

Imagine a life where you no longer felt disconnected, not good enough or unlovable.

A life where validation from others was no longer a source of stress or worry…

A life where the Holy Spirit helped you to develop the fruits of the spirit: love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.

On your #SelfLoveJourney, you’ll uncover the spiritual blocks that are impacting your relationship with yourself, and most importantly, with God:

Unresolved issues: Things from your past that you have never properly dealt with.

Unforgiveness: You’re carrying offense towards people in your past who have hurt you.

Unrepented sin: Things you’ve done that you haven’t brought to the cross. You’re filled with shame and guilt. You feel like you can’t come close to God. It’s like you’re unworthy.

Undisciplined lifestyle: There’s habits in your life that aren’t helpful, things that just keep dragging you down.

Being unequally yoked: Frankly, there are some people who just shouldn’t be in your life. Not every person has earned the right to have the influence that they have. Just because they’ve always been there, or been there for a long time, does not excuse their toxic behavior. 

If any of this resonates, join the 12-Week #SelfLoveJourney with Katia Beeden now to experience a life-changing transformation.

You can live a life you love!

Read what others have to say here.

I kept getting entangled in relationships with narcissistic partners (and friends… and bosses!) After a long-term relationship abruptly ended,  I found myself ruminating about my ex’s abusive behavior. I was so hurt and angry at them for how badly they had treated me. Their jaw-dropping cruelty and lack of empathy. I was desperately trying to understand how they could do that to me. I wanted to make sense of the experience. The trouble is, I was focusing on them and their behavior.

One day, whilst driving, I suddenly had an epiphany. I asked myself: “Why did you allow the abuse to go on for so long? What inside of you thought that abuse was love?”

I realized, in that moment, that the real solution lay with me. I had zero control over what they had or had not done. I only had control over what I allowed and what I did not allow in my life. And unfortunately, I had allowed a lot of nonsense!

I shifted my attention from them back towards myself and focused on moving forward with my life. I realized I had to heal the root cause of my repeating patterns. I had a lot inner work to do!

The power to transform lies with YOU changing how YOU show up in relationships.

Learn what is okay and what is not. Learn to set BOUNDARIES and be witness to your own dysfunctional behaviors. Notice when you are self-abandoning.

When I shifted my focus and turned it back toward myself, everything changed. I realized the real work of healing involved going inward and healing myself. I had no idea how long my #SelfLoveJourney would take, but I’ve come to realize one thing for sure:

The healing journey is a journey back home to yourself, and it’s a journey back home to your Heavenly Father. Without realizing it, we make an idol out of the narcissist. They become our focus. It is so liberating to put the focus back where it belongs.

There will always be narcissists, sociopaths, abusers and manipulators, the trick is: Do not let them in! Notice the red flags and become ‘manipulation proof’.

Instead of asking, “Why me?” Ask, “What am I going to do about it?”

Understanding your past, owning your present and creating your future – that is the essence of the #SelfLoveJourney.

Learn to become an empowered person, deeply in love with your work, your life and most importantly, with God and yourself.

This is not cookie-cutter coaching! Over twelve weeks, Katia will personally guide you on a healing path where you’ll uncover disempowering beliefs and behaviors around self-worth, boundaries and your ability to self-soothe and self-regulate.

Although the program has a structure to it, I adapt each session to suit you and your individual needs. You set the pace.

Getting back in touch with yourself and your body will help you to overcome old ways of thinking and being.

Each week, we meet 1:1 for a private coaching session via Skype or Zoom. You will also be able to get email support in-between sessions. This is different from a typical course where it’s just listening and learning; this is about taking action and making a change. I give you practical tools that you can easily apply to your every day life.

To maximize transformation as much as possible, I’ve put together something special and unique to guide you every step of the way.

Week 1: Your Story will become your Testimony

In week one you unburden and tell your story. The first step to healing is awareness. You can’t heal and release that which you are unaware of! There is something very healing about using your voice and talking about what has happened to you. There is healing power in being seen and heard. Your story will become your testimony.

Week 2: Breaking the Stronghold of your Inner Critic

In week two you identify and quieten the inner critic and replace it with the kinder, more loving voice of TRUTH.

Week 3: Meeting and Healing Your Inner Child

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.” Psalm 139: 13-14 If you are a Christian looking to identify and heal your inner child, but want to steer of secular or new age practices, you are in the right place!

Week 4: Stop abandoning yourself and feel safe to FEEL your emotions

when you are falling into old patterns of denying, ignoring or numbing out your feelings. Drop your old defense mechanisms. Learn to feel safe in your body to move through your discomfort and let go. Learn to self-soothe and self-regulate – practices that help being in your body. Reparenting Yourself: learn to create safety, love and boundaries for yourself through self-regulation.

Week 5: Healing the Father Wound: Breaking strongholds – Neglect, abandonment, rejection, and/or abuse.

In week five you discover how the father wound has manifested itself in your life so that you can integrate and heal these wounded parts. I have discovered that a broken relationship with your father tends to break your relationship with your Heavenly Father. Healing my father wound, healed my relationship with God. He became my “daddy” my “Abba”.

Week 6: Healing the Mother Wound: Breaking strongholds – Neglect, abandonment, rejection, and/or abuse.

In week six you discover how the mother wound has manifested itself in your life. Stop abandoning yourself and your needs. Learn how to become emotionally available to yourself. Because you’re in a constant state of emotional dysregulation, you’re walking on eggshells and placing the needs of your narcissistic parent above your own. You inadvertently make your parent an idol. They become your God and all your energy and focus goes on pleasing and appeasing them – and you lose yourself and your connection to your true father your Abba.

Week 7: Breaking Soul Ties

In week seven you learn how to take back your power. A soul tie is a strong emotional or spiritual connection between two people that can be romantic or platonic. Soul ties can form with family, friends, co-workers or romantic partners. Learn about boundaries so you can create relationships where you feel respected, valued and supported. learn to set boundaries with yourself. This not only boosts your self-confidence, it also fosters self-trust.

Week 8: Meeting another Part of Yourself: Breaking old patterns and asking the Holy Spirit to reveal hidden strongholds

Using an Internal Family Systems approach, together with the leading of the Holy Spirit, we uncover a hidden part of yourself that needs healing, so that you can be free of (the trauma of) the past.

Week 9: Letting go of a core limiting belief about yourself: Breaking Strongholds of Co-dependency and People-pleasing

In week nine you identify a negative core belief. To start healing, it helps to take a few steps back to understand your coping mechanisms from childhood. Those programs kept you safe but there is a good chance they are no longer serving you. You are absolutely not responsible for what happened to you as a child but as an adult, you are responsible for how you choose to move forward in your life.

Week 10: Deliverance.

In week ten we ask the Holy Spirit and Jesus to free you from any strongholds. Trauma and emotional abuse can open us up to oppression from the enemy.

Week 11: Anger Release & Healing through Forgiveness

Let go of anger and discover inner peace. Sometimes, you think you’ve healed or forgiven something, and suddenly it pops back into your awareness. You realize you have more work to do or a new perspective to adopt. Unexpressed anger or grief is often at the root of an inability to let go and move on.

Week 12: Radical Acceptance and moving forward

In week 12 you’ve come to terms with what happened to you. Now you can move forward in faith instead of fear. You’re no longer listening to the voice of the inner critic or the voice of enemy. Instead, you can clearly hear your own voice… and most importantly, the still small voice of the Holy Spirit.

Here’s what you get with your 12-week Coaching Program

12 x 60 min 1:1 private coaching sessions with Katia Beeden including somatic bodywork

Email and voice message support between sessions

The feeling of being deeply seen, heard and supported

A supportive coach and teacher ready to guide you along your healing path

Weekly homework to support your healing journey

Recordings of your sessions to refer back to

eBook How to #FeelyourFeelings and Let them go

Why listen to me?

Like so many of us, I have experienced bullying, health issues and the deep-seated trauma of narcissistic abuse. I am proud to say I overcame a teenage eating disorder and healed my early-onset Rheumatoid Arthritis and debilitating migraines. Both are in remission. I’ve learned how trauma and numbed out emotions cause dis-ease in the body. By healing and releasing the past, you heal your mind, body and soul.

However, after healing my physical body, I still had negative, patterns showing up in my relationships. I decided to face my pain so that I could understand and heal these repeating cycles of abuse and betrayal. My own healing journey to self-love was the impetus for creating the curriculum for the #SelfLoveJourney Coaching Program. I have curated the most powerful and successful components of my healing journey to help you heal too. I am thrilled to say it has taken flight, and teaching others how to love themselves has become my passion and my purpose. I am still a work in progress. My journey to wholeness is now a daily practice that I embrace with compassion and patience. Read what others have to say here.

The #SelfLoveJourney Coaching Program has been a grounding force in my healing journey. Katia’s knowledge-based, and structured approach, paired with her kind understanding and dedication to the weekly sessions, let me know that healing with self-love was possible… Healing from narcissistic abuse is no joke, and you do not have to do it alone. It’s best to have someone guide you through the dark, choppy waters. I cannot recommend the #SelfLoveJourney Coaching Program enough! Engaging Katia to help me heal was indeed one of the best decisions I have made since learning to trust myself again! Thanks a million again Katia! Love to you always! xx ~ Sharifah Shaliza Syed Manshor

I can’t recommend her enough! Katia has helped me to truly understand who I am at soul level… I’ve healed parts of myself, as well as  family dynamics and wounds. Her Tarot readings are truly accurate and exactly what I need to know in that moment. Katia provided me with knowledge, techniques, and personal guidance, for overcoming various struggles. After taking Katia’s coaching sessions, I can confidently say that I am AWAKE and I know my life purpose, who I am, and where I am headed. Thank you, thank you, Katia! ~ Kayla

A hero on a journey requires a guide to illuminate the way. I am grateful to have adventured the #SelfLoveJourney with Katia as my compassionate coach because the experience has profoundly served my life. Thank you ~ Matteo Favazzo

Read what others have to say here.

What to expect

As much as I wish I could wave my magic wand and heal you, I cannot guarantee specific results. Your healing-journey is up to you. To transform you need to resource yourself to take action and do The Work. If you stay in a job you hate, or watch television instead of starting your business, or continue to eat badly and not move your body, these are negative actions. Doing the same thing over and over will not get you different results. The good news is that every new positive action you take creates a vibrational shift in your energy field. Positive action results in abundance, every single time! So it really is a case of, “if it’s going to be, it’s up to me!”

I can’t make you do The Work. But here is what I can do:

I can show up fully and be present. I can support you, and share with you everything I know. I can listen to you. I can help you to see things differently. I can hold space while you process your feelings. I can help you release the limiting beliefs holding you back. I can teach you my techniques. I can show you how to get clear on what you really, really want and to stop settling for less. I can model a safe relationship dynamic. I can teach you how to love and value yourself.

FAQ

How do I know this course is right for me? 

Take a moment to be still. Get comfortable, relax your body and gently close your eyes. Take a deep inhale through your nose, pause, slowly exhale. Repeat a few more times and ask yourself, “is this course right for me, right now?” Feel around for the answer. It may come through as an inner knowing, a word, an image, a feeling, song lyrics, a greater vision… Trust what comes through. Ask God, “would you have me do this?” Listen to your heart – it knows the answer.

How do we connect? 

We meet via Skype or Zoom. These will be audio-only calls. You receive recording of your sessions.

Do you offer a payment plan? 

YES! I don’t want money to get in the way of your healing journey. Email me info@angelovehub to arrange a manageable payment plan.

Do we only focus on self-love? 

We focus on whatever is front and center for you. However, self-love is the cornerstone of this work. We always ask ourselves, “what is the highest choice I can make in this moment?” and then check in with yourself, “is this action or choice moving me closer to self-love or further away from it?” For example, setting a boundary is an act of self-love but it may anger the other person. Old programming focuses on the other person’s discomfort. New programming holds the boundary. When you love and respect yourself, you attract high-quality relationships, make more money, feel better about yourself and in the process, look better. You put up with a lot less nonsense and you only put yourself in jobs, relationships and situations that nourish and support you. We’ll focus on the life areas you feel are most pressing. If you desire more love, peace and abundance, then this program is for you.

What days are sessions held on? 

We will work out a set day and time that suits both of us. We will meet at the same time, on the same day every week. 

How do I schedule sessions with Katia?

We discuss and schedule the dates and times together as soon as you have made payment. We will communicate via email or we will hop on a quick Skype call. 

Can you guarantee specific results?

There are no guarantees in life. It would be unethical to claim I could ‘heal you.’ I give you the tools you need to help you heal yourself. I deeply believe in my ability to help you see yourself differently. I believe I can increase your belief in yourself. I believe that the spiritual and practical principals I teach can transform your life for the better. I believe deeply in the various tools this coaching program offers. I believe it will give you what you need to fall in love with yourself… and your life.

How can I be sure you are the right fit for me?

I offer free 15 minute consultations for those of you who have not worked with me before. Email me here to set up a Skype or Zoom call. Please note this is only for serious inquiries and is not a container for free advice. 

Here’s what you get with your 12-week Coaching Program

12 x 60 min 1:1 private coaching sessions with Katia Beeden including somatic bodywork

Email support AND voice message support between sessions

The feeling of being deeply seen, heard and supported

A supportive coach and teacher ready to guide you along your healing path

Weekly homework to support your healing journey

Recordings of your sessions to refer back to

eBook How to #FeelyourFeelings and Let them go